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Hi ladies, Back again! Thank god I have a place to spill my feelings or dont know what I'd do. Today I cannot stop crying. Waiting on my results after treatment and it's getting harder by the day. I seem to be thinking the worst all the time. The thought of dying is freaking me out big time. I dont want to leave my Daughter and I cannot seem to find a positive frame of mind:( I dont know if it's cause menopause has kicked in or what. I feel like I cant talk to anyone close as I know I would breakdown. My results are due at end of Nov and I guess it's just the not knowing. I am so ashamed to say that I am so jealous of 'normal' people and just keep asking why this happened to me. I am not a bad person and have had my fair share of struggles in my life and now this??? Some people go through life so easy and I am so at a loss of why all this punishment. I am terrified of whats around the corner, and to make things worse my daughter seems to think cause I'm done with treatment that I'm better. It's all so heartwrenching. At the beginning of this journey I was so positive and in a way pleased that I was only stage 2 with no spread to other areas of my body but now I am thinking what if it aint worked and what if it's somewhere else?? It's just awful. I know you ladies will understand all I have said, and thanks for reading. I just had to vent today as I really feel I have nowhere else to turn to. Although I have a great family and support they really dont understand. Kim xxx