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Sorry- sure I'm being annoying as keep on posting the same sort of things... think it just helps when I write it down maybe!
I was told over the phone on Friday that I have squamous cell CC.
I had my MRI and am seeing consultant tomorrow evening- I know it won't be 100% accurate without a pet scan (?) but I'm hoping he can give me an idea of staging tomorrow from the MRI??
It is taking over my everything worrying!
I know everyone probably feels this way- but I am so so certain mine is pretty advanced. Looking back at 'symptoms' I've had them for so many years!
sciatica on and off- although- the first time I hurt my back was due to a quad bike incident (I thought) so could be unrelated. Fingers crossed!!!! Loads of other little things that I don't think many people would add together to make cancer!!
What brought me to getting a very overdue smear was post coital bleeding... and the cancer was seen immediately so I know it's no small problem!
For the last 2 weeks, I have had the most awful pain in my back- depends on how I sit/lie how bad it is... standing is much better! Some have said it could be my anxiety (which is vicious at the minute!!) but... the pain is so strong- even with all of the pain medication- that surely there has to be some truth to it??
It is a strange pain- like a niggling, dull ache with a twinge of burning! Every so often I also get pins and needles in my hands and feet... spreading up my forearms.
My worry is that it is resting on a nerve or something?
The strange thing is- the pain only started when I started to suspect/worry this could be cancer..... but... it's relentless!
I am trying every source of relaxation that I can think of, nothing is working!
I am a complete medical anxiety nutcase- terrified of my own shadow when it comes to doctors- so I am starting to have really negative thoughts about actually being able to mentally deal with treatment! I am the person that worries when I take medication if it makes me feel any kind of different.. that I've had some awful reaction and something has gone wrong! Own worst enemy!
Has anyone else 'felt' their tumor radiating in their back and still been a low'ish stage? Or... has anyone else truly felt pains like this that turned out to be anxiety driven? I just can't believe that is the case for me as they are so real- and the pins and needles have been happening for a few months.
Feeling calmer just for typing all of this, to people that completely understand- so thank you.
07.08.20 diagnosed with squamous cell 1b2 cc
16.09.20 radical hysterectomy