I had a smear test done recently and within a week received that dreaded letter stating 'abnormal cells' and that a colposcopy appointment would follow. The letter arrived on Saturday afternoon...so of course nowhere was open. No one for me to speak to or ask questions. Both me and my partner completely fell apart as I have had a lot of problems with irregular bleeding and abdominal pain.
Work was out of the question for me. Got an appointment with the nurse on Monday morning after being in pieces all weekend. Nurse confirmed Moderate changes and HPV positive and tried to reasurre me it was NOT cancer. Due to my anxiety especially due to the problems Id had prior to this result she recommended a phone consultation with the dpctor the next day.
As she had put my mind at ease a little tiny bit, the doctor seemed to undo all this. I told him about the pains but he basically said i was freaking out and that things only go downhill very quickly after the second abnormal smear...WTF. why would you say this. He then put me on light duty in work because of my anxieties in waiting for the appointment. I work in a prison so I appreciated this as my job is difficult on the best of days, without something like this hanging over me. But this again worried me even more.
Still no sign of the colposcopy appointment, i feel sick amd literally break down several times a day. This site has literally been keeping me going and giving me faith. Everyone ive told just says "oh this happens to loads of women, its nothing, my sisters friends cousins best friend from school had this" usual type of crap that doesnt help. Jist afyer a bit of support from people in the same mind frame. Pre colposcopy. Pre results. Pre any peace of mind....
Thank you in advance x