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I’ve posted in this group twice since receiving my smear results a few weeks ago.
My smear showed mild dyskariosis which I know to a lot of women on here is no big deal and could be a lot worse. That said any abnormality is scary. I can’t say I wasn’t expecting it because last April my smear showed HPV but no changes. I also fell pregnant and so my immune system probably struggled to fight any virus. After birth I was really unwell and ended up with a cold sore and mastitis.
I went alone for my colposcopy yesterday. The consultant was lovely and he was very dismissive of it being anything to worry about. He asked me about my last period and i told him it had only just come back after having my baby. I also started Microgynon and bled non stop. In fact I’m still bleeding now. Again he told me they wouldn’t be anything to do with my cervix and told me to come off the pill until my periods became regular again.
During the colposcopy he saw two small white areas at the top of my cervix and took 1 biopsy. I was in and out in 15 mins which surprised me. Afterwards he told me ‘it’s not cancer’ and when I asked about grading he said he wouldn’t even think cin1. He said I’d need a follow up in 6 months. Obviously I felt elated when I left but as time passes the anxiety continues. The bleeding continues but like I said don’t know if this is the pill plus biopsy. I have stopped the pill now so could be a withdrawal bleed. I’ve also woken up today full of a cold and a friendly cold sore has planted itself on my top lip. I have two girls 20 months and 4 months to look after and I’m always exhausted. I’m worried I’ll never fight off this stupid HPV because I’m always stressed. I’m also a social worker so when I go back to work after Mat leave I know my stress levels will rocket again.
I suppose I’m writing this to vent. As good as my partner is he just doesn’t seem to get it. He always says what are you worrying about, nothing bad has been said. I know he is right but who doesn’t worry about anything abnormal. I just don’t want the biopsy results to show something completely different and throw me into an anxious orbit. I’ve read stories on here of girls who were told one thing at colposcopy and received a totally diff result after biopsy. In some ways maybe it’d be better if they didn’t say anything!
First smear @ 25 - normal
Second smear 04/2018 - positive HPV no changes
Third smear 07/2019 - HPV positive and low grade changes
09/2019 Colposcopy, 1 biopsy possible CIN1