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MRI - SCARED

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leamaw
MRI - SCARED

Hi all

It's been a while since I've been here... Was feeling positive about my last results and taking my doctors advice of "live like you never had cancer"

Since my all clear, I've met the love of my life and I've never been happier - which might be why I'm so scared.

Had my 6 month post surgery MRI on Thursday. The doctor is going to give me the results on 1st November when he does my next colposcopy... However they gave me the MRI disc and there are 2 areas which they seem to have zoomed in and cropped out to focus on. Both show a mass the size of a pea - in one its shown bright white and in the other it's shown dark, almost black.

I know I'm not qualified to read the MRI but I can't help be scared that the radiographer has thought to zoom in on something.

My last MRI was simply a pelvic scan but this one included my torso and I've convinced myself its shown another tumour up... I have never been happier and I'm wondering if this is my knock back down to earth... This isn't my story and I'm scared.

I know I only have to wait a couple more weeks but any reassurance would be much appreciated... I don't know who else to talk to as everybody just says "you can't read that, just wait and talk to your doctor" - easier said than done when you feel like a ticking timebomb... :-(

L x

Dec11: severe dysk Jan12: Colp, punch biopsy= CIN3, microinvasion & lymphatic invasion Jan12: Cone biopsy, EUA, colposcopy & cystoscopy Feb12: Result Squamous cell carcinoma stage 1A2 but clear margins from cone Mar12: MRI Mar12: ALL CLEAR!!!! :-)

kay_from_oz

I don't know much about MRIs, but I imagine what you're seeing could be almost anything from a polyp to a fibroid to a cyst. I know with your history, it's only natural to assume the worst and this must be very scary for you. It's a shame you have to wait until the first to get the results, cos it gives you a couple of weeks to imagine all sorts of terrible scenarios and disasterous outcomes. But, as hard as it is, you need to try and quieten those panicked little voices in your head somehow. All the worry and stress in the world right now won't change the future in the tiniest little bit. All it will do is make the waiting all the more unbearable for you. Try and distract yourself as best you can and hang in there. You [i]will[/i] get through this!

*big warm gentle hugz*

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."
Orson Welles

leamaw

Thanks Kay - really kind of you to reply.

So today I've done some googling of 'abdominal cross section MRIs with labels' and think I've convinced myself that it's all okay - amazing what the internet can do for peace of mind whilst you're waiting! ;-)

So now I'm going to stop fretting, see what happens this week and then next when I have my colp and hope for the best.

What will be, will be and in the meantime, I will eat chocolate and drink wine to make myself feel happy! haha! xx

Dec11: severe dysk Jan12: Colp, punch biopsy= CIN3, microinvasion & lymphatic invasion Jan12: Cone biopsy, EUA, colposcopy & cystoscopy Feb12: Result Squamous cell carcinoma stage 1A2 but clear margins from cone Mar12: MRI Mar12: ALL CLEAR!!!! :-)

kay_from_oz

:) That's the way! All the worrying and fretting in the world right now won't change a thing, so if you can put it out of your mind, you're doing youself a bit favour! It's good that your research was so reassuring. That certainly doesn't hurt at all.

*hugz*

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."
Orson Welles