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Hi. I'm sorry if this is maybe the wrong place, and for my use of different words as I'm in the USA, so some things are a little differen, but here it goes.
I had my first Pap smear a year ago, at 21 years old and they said it was abnormal but nothing to worry about. This year, I went in for another and got diagnosed with hpv and went back for a colposcopy. I got diagnosed with CIN3 the other day, and scheduled my leep for about 2 weeks from now.
Im absolutely terrified. I know it's rare to have this turn into cervical cancer, but I don't want to pretend I'm absolutely fine and it's all going to be ok. The leep might not work, and I might have to have a cryotherapy treatment. There's quite a few possibilities and nothing is definite and it's all just a waiting game at this point and it's frustrating, and all I want to do is cry.
my other point of concern is my boyfriend. My boyfriend is ftm transgender, so he can actually get tested. However, he's never had a Pap smear, and I know he's scared and that the Pap will probably cause some dysphoric feelings and I just don't know what to do to support him, especially since I'm a bit of a mess right now. I don't think he knows how to be supported right now, either. We have been talking about it, and will continue to talk about it until all this is basically over. I just need support, but I know I'm in a pretty unique situation.